Feels like this all the time..


I was inspired once by a quote..” you only need those twenty seconds of bravery to change your entire life.”  I’m in freak out mode, my life is at the point to where it’s life vs death. I can’t exactly explain what has been going on, but what I can say is that it’s not good. I can’t take this life anymore. I was on the verge of just ending it, until I thought about this idea. I can’t exactly give details in case they find this. but I’m going some where’s good, with someone who actually cares. I am going to make something out of my life. Then i will be able to support my family, maybe then the struggles for them will end and they won’t hate me as much. Maybe my attitude will get better, especially towards life. maybe now people would want to stay in my life…i just hope this goes as I planned..only traveling by night..Hope for the best.


The past couple of days, I’ve just been so speechless…I just don’t even know what to say anymore. everyone believes what everyone else is saying instead of what I have to say, kinda like how I was kicked out of school. All the blame ends up on me and I end up hurt…i am really just thinking of cuddling up in the corner of my bedroom and just staying there away from the world..I deny the integrity of this painful experience..believe me it’s worst then most think it is..but I think of it as a valuable source of guidance..that’s how it gets turned into process..I don’t know what to do anymore, i try, I LITERALLY FUCKING TRY….and I end up hated, what’s the point if that’s the outcome each time? I’m just a soul with intentions of good, but i’m soo understood..I don’t know who to  be anymore,,,I be me and i’ts not enough….I be something entirely different and I end up hurting me and my loved ones…I’ve been told that i’m nothing, ugly, pathritc, an abomination…I was even told to go kill myself..I was lead to believe all this..I don’t know what to believe anymore..I don’t know who to trust..my mind and feeling have been fucked with so many times…i don’t know what to do…one minutes im happy as can be, the next just ready to give up…but I guess that’s what happens when you try to change your fate….


Civilizations evolve, rise, and at the apex of their glory, they are extinguished. Reapers. A mere label past civilizations used to describe our destructive nature, in the end what you choose to call us is irrelevant, we simply.. are. Your technology is based on advanced organic evolution, by this, you develop upon the paths we desire. Your existence, is our mistake. Organic life is nothing but a genetic mutation, before us.. you were nothing. You cannot even begin to grasp our existence. Your words empty, your lifes temporal. You wither.. and die. Dependable, weak. The cycle of extinction must continue, we are the end of everything. We.. are sempiternal.


  • We.. are the end of everything. The Harbingers of your destruction. We represent order in the chaos of organic evolution. You exist because we allow it, and you will end.. because we demand it.
  • Irritation. A label created by the humans to give voice to their emotion, in the end, what you feel is irrelevant. Rudimentary creatures of flesh and blood, you touch my mind, fumbling in ignorance, incapable of understanding.



Your fragile existence will come to it’s end, a corruption-free Earth will be formed in the eradication of human-kind. Our sovereign kind will remain sempiternal, and your legacy shall be harvested. We are Harbinger, you are nothing. You are incapable of understanding.